Journal

September 2019

Write Life

And I’m done line edits! The book is off for another round of feedback, and meanwhile I’m going to let my brain turn to mush for until it’s time for the next round. Ahh the writing life…

GUESS WHAT? (ICYMI)

No it’s not a book surprise, but it’s a big one, and also the reason I’ve been feeling unwell over the last few months. We’re having another baby this December! I’ve had to take a step back to rest, and cancelled plans – sorry! My pregnancies have both been terrible, but that’s the luck of the draw. If you were one of those miraculously symptom free mothers, I envy you.

I am not looking forward to the sleepless nights, but oh, the baby snuggles, and smiles. I miss those.

Parenthood changes you, and I was just thinking about all the small ways I’ve adjusted over the last few years. These days…

  1. I have no time to catch up on TV or binge watch a series. I’ve been to the movie theatre just once this year. MCU? Uh… I’m so lost.
  2. I’ve gotten used to being interrupted in the bathroom, in the shower, while sleeping, while eating… pretty much at any time.
  3. I never fill my plate, because I know I’ll be eating the child’s leftovers. Also, half eaten food is no longer disgusting. I spent precious time cooking and I’m not going to waste it even if the child does not appreciate it.
  4. Most spare bits of time get filled. One minute while something is microwaving means one minute to load the laundry.
  5. I treasure the writing time I do get, because it’s one thing in my life that’s just for me.
  6. But I’ve also learned the value of doing nothing. This is not laziness. Sometimes you just have to catch your breath and put your feet up.
  7. I’ve been squeezing in reading time while the kiddo watches TV and movies (she wants company so it’s a win win).
  8. I’ve learned to be present for all those small moments, because these add up to my life.

There are bad parts and hard days, but so is life. There is so little time to actually be myself and not mom or not working. Even though I’m mostly fine, just a little thing could upset the balance of my life, because there is so little wiggle room. I also never knew I could love another human being the way I love my child. The vulnerability and responsibility it makes you feel can be terrifying, and yet here I am willing to do it all over again anyway.

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2 Comments

  1. Very happy for you re: a soon-to-be second child, but so sorry that your pregnancies have been tough! Because being pregnant can be hard even under the BEST of circumstances. :/

    OH YES to #3, 5, and 6!

    1. This one has been a lot better than my first experience (a relief!), but it’s still hard – especially when dealing with a demanding toddler at the same time. Crossing my fingers for an easy baby this time!

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