I can finally see again! For the last little while it’s been difficult to see the difference between . and .. The double vision has been driving me nutty. My only salvation at work has been the red squiggly line flagging bad spelling. I couldn’t take a month off, though that’s how long it’s taken to get to this point after eye surgery.
It’s been a good break. The first week after the surgery, I watched no TV, was banned from checking my phone, or turning on the computer. It drove me a bit crazy the first two days, but then I started enjoying the peacefulness. I’d been pretty stressed out before that point, and I really needed the break. Enforced rest will do that to you. Zen. Meditation. Naps. Quiet.
It has been frustrating too. There was one point where I got lost in an Ikea and cried, because I was too blind to see more than a few feet, and was afraid I’d crash into some glassware, or not be able to find E again. I felt like a misplaced child. I texted him from the corner: “Find me near the hotdogs!” I also ended up buying a vase that I could swear was green, but turned out to be yellow.
Still, it was a relief to be able to let my mind wander again, to have time for daydreams. I feel a lot more like myself than I have in a while, and I’d like to hang on to that feeling, this peacefulness. The days feel so much longer when there’s not a constant stream of information blasting at you. I can manage it, I think. I don’t miss the TV. I do miss you all though.
I’ll catch up with you soon.