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Howling at the Moon

I feel chatty and restless for no particular reason today. Maybe it’s the full moon tonight. Maybe it’s the three cups of tea.

So hey there! How are you? Oh thanks for asking about me too! Since you asked…

I’ve reached the halfway point in this draft and I’m pretty sure I’ll be done in about two weeks. I never expected the editing to take this long, but I know I haven’t wasted any time with it. I’m still learning, and I suspect I will be forever. I’m already thinking about the next book I want to write, and what I want to do differently the next time around.

It’s funny, the biggest struggles I’ve with the writing process so far have been with battling doubt and insecurity, not the amount of work or the writing. The doubts come and it go like the tide. I’m in an upswing right now, where the excitement of ideas crowds out the nagging in my brain. The only real tool I’ve got to battle that doubt is writing through it.

I don’t like to talk about the details of my WIP on this blog. It’s a bit of superstition? Sometimes I think that if I write something about it, I’m doomed to change it. To be even more honest, I don’t really know what kind of Dr. Frankenstein’s monster I’ve created here. Is it a monster, a unicorn, a scruffy street dog, a worn out hat*? The only way to know is to get a bit of feedback. I’m both looking forward to that and dreading it, like a plate of boiled unsalted vegetables 😉

I’ve also been doing some serious thinking about how to define success, why I’m writing, and what my motivations are… I’m getting closer to an answer, or answers. Some of which are completely embarrassing! Maybe I’ll spill the beans another day, just not yet.

So in the meantime, I’ve got more work to do, and nothing to show you yet.

*What do you wish your writing would be, and what do you think it is?
a) monsters – Stories that creep’s up on you out of nowhere, hits you so hard you question your mind, your view of reality, or sanity.
b) unicorns – Stories of beauty, elegant prose and craftsmanship, writing to be envied, magical, do things with story that you never thought was possible.
c) or scruffy dogs – Stories that are a little ugly, sloppy around the edges, but it might win its way into your heart.
d) a worn out hat – A comfortable story, full of character, but a hat’s a hat! You know what to expect.

Ahh I just made that up. I don’t know if it’s a good analogy or not. I’m just rambling now. Feel free to ramble with me. Randomness entirely welcome.

16 Comments

  1. Hmm…not sure what my WIP is right now (without the red-line changes implemented). It’s pretty fragmented, actually (maybe like a scruffy dog, lol). I took Holly Lisle’s “if you change something, pretend it’s already been changed and keep on writing” approach, so as it is now it doesn’t always make sense. Right now I’m focusing on going back and making those changes to earlier scenes but also improving some weak ones and making sure I’m sending the right information and emotional experience across to potential readers.

    I’m especially concerned about striking false notes in areas where my imagination takes precedence over realism. If I were to let a real-life pilot read my work, for example, would s/he be able to relate to my protagonist—even when she is flying an aircraft that uses imaginary technology? That kind of thing.

    I recently came across a historical fiction writer named Sebastian Faulks who wrote a scene about a WWII pilot in Charlotte Gray, and I was really impressed by the kind of detail he included–some I’ve thought to include in my own writing though some I have not. I’d definitely like to read more fiction, and non-fiction, before I even consider getting this thing published because I’d like to be that kind of writer (the kind that produces “unicorns,” lol). People who write historical fiction really have to get their details straight because some of their audience is bound to be history buffs, so I think that even for someone like me who is writing fantasy there is a lot to be learned from that genre.

    If only I could read faster!

    Because I’m something of a perfectionist, heh, this is something I continue to struggle with: detail. Not giving too much though making sure the detail that is present makes the greatest impact… *sighs* And I thought getting the first draft done was hard.

    1. T. S. Bazelli Author

      I’m sure the first draft was hard (and most people give up long before that)! I took the same approach to my first draft, change something and keep going as if it’s always been that way, but that made the initial revisions a bit of a nightmare. Editing has its own flavor of hard hehe.

      I hear you on the details. I love historical fiction because it feels so rich. I’m not sure how much richness appears in my novel and not just in my head. I suspect it’s a bit sparse, but I hope it’s enough that it doesn’t feel generic.

      Ahh yes, I wish I could read faster, and edit faster for that matter hehe.

  2. Of course, I aspire to write unicorns. I fear I write monsters of one kind or another (maybe not the kind you mention here), I’d be okay if some of what I write were scruffy dogs… I aspire to be more than a worn hat… but a hat’s a hat, I guess. At least, even then, I’d know that some hat-wearers might be comfortable with my work.

    1. T. S. Bazelli Author

      I think I’d be ok with a scruffy dog story, though I’d hope it were either a monster or a unicorn. I also hope that hat wearers would like it too. LOL you know, in the end I guess I hope the story just doesn’t suck.

    1. T. S. Bazelli Author

      Thanks for the link, I really needed that today! Permitting yourself to be bad, and makes mistakes is scary, but you’re right it helps us grow. I need to reprogram my brain, but yes it’s hard 🙂

      And thank you for your support. I’m glad to have met such great writing buds online. I’ll get this done, and I’ve already got ideas for three more novels. I’m not giving up, ever! I expect no less from you too.

  3. I don’t talk about what I’m going to write, so I guess I’m a bit superstitious also. I talk about the storyI’m writing now, but there’s no reason not to since I’m posting it as I write it. But no predictions about what comes next.

    I think my stories are scruffy dogs. Definitely not unicorns, that doesn’t even sound like something I’d like to read. Since I always write about the same (ever-expanding) group of characters, there may be a “worn out hat” aspect, but I do try to shake things up a bit. In the story I’m writing now, two characters will go to places they’ve never really gone before. I’ve been writing about both of them for 40 years, but there are still surprises there, as there are with people.

    (I’m trying to fix the ital problem, but we’ll see if it works. 🙂 )

    1. T. S. Bazelli Author

      I think a lot of people like a mix of the familiar and the unexpected. Good characters always seem to have surprises up their sleeves, and it must be nice to know them so well after all this time writing with them. 🙂

      1. They both surprise me all the time.

        It just occurred to me that they both got married along the way, which I never would have expected. One only did because another character pointed out something to her that I’d never realized.

        (It’s always a weird experience to write about characters who are smarter than I am.)

  4. Hey, hey hey, hey hey, hey, I got two dimes from Costa Rica (I think?), a quarter(?) from France(?), a handful of wooden roses, a tiki torch, and a couple of whack-job plants who keep me company when I’m not ignoring them!!!

    You did say that Randomness was welcome…

    Anyhow. I think my writing turns out to be a unicorn sometimes. Other times it’s a rusty car with nobody in it. *sigh*

    1. Hehe I figured you would take the bait for randomness! I have no idea what a Costa Rican dime looks like, cool 😉 I also nearly burned down the house once with a tiki torch.

      And rusty cars can be fixed. They just need a lot of love and work.

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